Nuff said

So,....
how does one start a new blog entry after a long absence? I could try and explain, why I have not written in so long, say that I was busy or justify my lack of motivation with a blasé comment that would insult everyone's intelligence so I have decided to simply not give an explanation, whatsoever and simply pick it back up... :-)

I have been painting again and am currently trying to finish a picture but I am uncertain as to which colour I should use. Maybe you can help me?


I want to add green so here is a chart. Pick your favorite and let me know :-)



Apart from that things have not changed much.
Kids are still being kids, with the added "bonus" that they are becoming Teenagers, fast...
Simon still works in the UK and I am still ill...
I have stopped taking painkillers and it is not easy, I find myself in need of distraction that gets my mind of the pain. One of these distractions is World of Warcraft, which admittetly I play way too much by now, but on the upside I have met some great people on there. And believe it or not, not everyone that lieks to play world of warcraft is a "neird" although give it we are all nuts in one way or another but then again, who wants to be "normal" anyways?

As long as I don't turn up like this dude I think I am ok...



There are some work prospects for me on the horizon and I do hope that it all works out, as my life might actually make that oh so welcome turn for the better, not that I am saying it is "bad" right now, but I could do with it being a little easier! But then again, don't we all...


The one thing I truly regret about haveing withdrawn so much over the last few months is that I have lost contact with a agreat many people, that actually meant a great deal to me.
For those of you who have not given up on me yet:

Your friendship is greatly treasured, even if I have not been able to show this. The messages sent by you, letting me know that you care have slowly made it possible for me to drag myself back out of the very deep whole I was in and am still climbing out of!
Bobert F. Kennedy once said:

Each time a man stands for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current which can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.

This of course being on a much smaller scale but it has affected and still is affecting me nontheless. Small ripples, that "rocked my boat" :-) (Please excuse the pun).

Thank you!

Happyness DOES come in boxes!

I got sent some Lucky Charms today!!!!



And you know what? It is almost ridiculous how happy that made me. I almost had tears in my eyes. Lets see, it has been about 10 years since I last had them!

And they wonder why couples have communication problems...

Left brain dominant individuals are more orderly, literal, articulate, and to the point. They are good at understanding directions and anything that is explicit and logical. They can have trouble comprehending emotions and abstract concepts, they can feel lost when things are not clear, doubting anything that is not stated and proven.

Right brain dominant individuals are more visual and intuitive. They are better at summarizing multiple points, picking up on what's not said, visualizing things, and making things up. They can lack attention to detail, directness, organization, and the ability to explain their ideas verbally, leaving them unable to communicate effectively.

Me

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (66%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (24%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Overall you appear to be Right Brain Dominant

Simon

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (24%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (74%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Overall you appear to be Left Brain Dominant

I guess that sort of explains, well, it explains a lot. And I wondered why we drive each other crazy...
Well, I suppose it is as they say: Opposites attract!
Oh, and I have tried to learn to speak "Simon" and he is continuously improving his "Jeannine", but we still get "lost in translation"...
Good thing I love him, otherwise I would be in trouble...

So I was in hospital...

and guess what...
They still don't know what is wrong exactly...
They "hazarded" a number of guesses and we are following up on some of them now, but the best exclamation made by a doctor on the last few weeks was:
"Maybe we can tell you what you have in about 10 to 15 years, when medicine is a bit more advanced..."
I know have a whole entourage of doctors who are poking and prodding me, taking ounce after ounce of my blood in order to discover just what exactly it is that keeps evading them.

I wish Dr. House was real!!!


I meant the fictional character of course, I am quite aware of the fact, that Hugh Laurie is quite alive and kicking...

I would not even mind the rudeness, just as long as someone can tell me what is going on!
My health insurance hates me by the way...
Oh well, gotta take it all with a very large dose of humor (Does that come in a pill bottle as well?)!



Other than that, life goes its usual rather twisted and bumpy way. My eldest decided that she wants to stop dancing, my youngest has serious cat fights with her teacher, Simon is working himself to death and I am fighting the "never ending battle" with the German bureaucracy!

Oh well, such is life!

Thursday Thirteen # 15 (I think)

Thirteen Things I have gone and done these past few Weeks



1…. Joined

Urbis is a creative community with three types of users: creative people,
those who love and support creative people, and those who have opportunities for creative people. It's very creative.

Do come and join me there! Or at least critique my work! Please???

2…. Joined

Sad but true... Go on have a goggle!

3…. Finally gotten back round to writing my book - Well at least a few paragraphs...

4…. Made an interesting acquaintance on MySpace...

5…. Sorted out my tea cupboard, made an Excel Spreadsheet listing all my teas and where they are on the shelf and stuck it to the front of the cupboard...
Even sadder than joining MySpace, I know...

6…. Laid in bed all day with just about the worst headache in quite a while



7…. Run from one doctors appointment to the next... I hate it!!!

8…. Found out that the medication they have me on is in fact a not so distant cousin of heroin!!!



9…. Took down one Christmas tree and put up another...Well, it made the kids happy!!!! (Thats my story and I am sticking to it!)

10…. Made up some Playlists on



Check them out!

11….Watched a bunch of "Law and Order - SVU" episodes and although almost every single one makes me scared for me and my kids and the world it is almost addictive...

12….Talked to the long lost Relatives in the US several times. It is interesting seeing the kids interaction with them. No word from their "father" though...

13….Helped Simon write his essay about "The Allgäu" for his German course, well he wrote and I corrected, a bit... :-)





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2008... Oh great...

Well, the new year is of to a rough start...
I had a big argument with my friend that was over at New Years, over nothing, really.
Simon had to go back to England on the fifth and somehow parting gets more and more difficult each time.
I am ill, again. But guess what... It is something different this time...
The kids and I have doctors appointments "en masse" next week.
My Dad's dog died.
The money situation is still crap!



And:
My life has just gotten a lot more complicated (as if it wasn't enough already...)

Out of the blue I got an email from my former sister-in-law saying that they have been looking for us for the past seven years and that they want to get in touch again (and stay in touch). Heck I now even know where my ex husband is...
Now all of a sudden, we have Nanny and Papa and Aunts and Uncles and Cousins and most important of all a half brother, that want to have contact with the girls and me. I think it is great!!!
What I am not so sure about is their father.
Of course it is their right to get to know their father, it's just that I know him and from what I heard so far, he hasn't changed much...
I told him to write a letter to his daughters explaining why he has not bothered to get in contact in ten years.
To be perfectly honest, I am not looking forward to having to have conversations with him in the slightest.
At least the girls can go into this without prejudice as I have never said one ill word about him.
My eldest doesn't want to have any contact though, as she says, that he has not cared for the past 10 years, so why should she?
And the little ones first thought was: "What is Daddy going to think?" (Daddy being Simon) She was really worried, that her wanting to get to know her birth father (what she calls him) would hurt Simons feelings which of course both he (Simon) and I assured her would not be the case.
Oh, this is getting way too confusing...