I am not sure whether my ranting and raving is going to be of any interest to you, nor do I know if I am actually going to be able to rant and rave on a regular enough basis to keep your interest.
What to write? I suppose something about me would be in order? I am 29 years old and a mother of two. My daughters are 9 and 10 (so I was just 18 when I had my first child). Their father has been absent since shortly after my second daughter was born, but that is a story for another day.
I have a fiancee who lives and works in England. We see each other about once a month for a long Weekend but that is yet another long story for another day.
I am a self employed Hair and Make-up Artist and I have a school for Make-up Artists in a nearby town. Am I good? Yes I am! It is just a matter of convincing the rest of the world but mainly the Film and Fashion Industry that I am!
This is some of what I do:
My working life has not been the easiest of late.
It seems that every time things are looking up and actually going somewhere my health is playing havoc and decides that I am "destined to fail".
I suppose this is over-exaggerated a tad, but it feels that way.
In 2001 I was (finally) diagnosed with an illness called Pseudotumor Cerebri which is an overproduction of spinal fluid in my head. It causes much the same symptoms as a brain tumor would only it is not an actual mass in my brain but rather accumulated fluid. It has been making my life... rather difficult to say the least. I suffer from a number of symptoms like constant headaches, loss of motor control over my hands or legs, blurred or tunnel vision, balance problems and much more. On top of all that I have a number of other medical problems. In all, from a physical side of things I am sure that if there was such a thing as a body MOT I am sure they would cart me of to the next junk yard!
I had brain surgery twice in the last couple of years, they have but a shunt into my head (sort of a pressure valve) and things have been getting better and then worse and better again and then they went worse again. I am in and out of hospital on a regular basis and the Doctors are, it feels at least, at the end of their wits.
But, and this is the very big and very important BUT in my life, I am NOT going to let IT get me down!!!
I raise my children the best I can (although they are driving me crazy, slowly), I do my job if and when I can, I have great friends (some of which you will be introduced to along the line) I write and I paint in the little time that isn't spent on the necessities of life, in short:
I live!
It is late, I am going to try and get some sleep.
I bid you all a very fond farewell.
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